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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Sunday, November 27, 2005 10:19 PM
wahaha. today i finally disappear le. this will be saved as a draft first. lols. i'm going to do the bunks arrangement for the band camp. wahaha. think is going to take a long time bahs. hais. whatever it is, i'm going to finish by today. if not i will be going on holiday liao. :) just finish wrapping mr chew's birthday present. haha. today after church service, went to find expansive chocolates with Joycelyn and Liu Qing. Hui Yu pangseh us. sobs. then in the end, go till Changi Airport to buy. wahaha. had a lot of fun with them. especially with Joycelyn when talking about ahem(cannot say out) lols.

wells, never say NO to Jesus. it is a fatal word. wahaha. He is the Light, the Source. He pay for our debts. and i'm grateful to Him for not leaving me when i'm in trouble, when i face difficulties in my life. i'm sorry that i was the one who left Your presence. condemnation and guilt came down on me, and that's the reason why i dare not look to You anymore. i will get rid of it! i will win this warfare. wait for me, Lord.

i didnt lie to you. i was really at Changi Airport. but i lied to you that i'm going overseas le. wells, it's just the nice timing for me to go missing. like i said before. this is the time, i will know my heart. the time when i said i got to go, take care. i was carrying a very heavy heart. i did not want to do this, but, since i said before, i will do it. i do not know how you will felt after reading this. but then again, i'm not wanting to make you scared or what. doubts that are in my heart the last time, had not gone away. sometimes, i found the answers, sometimes, i do not know at all. can you tell me, what exactly you want? i hope that by the time i return, things will not be the same again. and don't always sleep so late. it's not good.

because i decided to go missing. i will not be contacting you for now, till the day i'm back. sorry. i'm not sure whether you are expecting any messages from me. but i know you today quite pig. haha. sleep and sleep. hahas. take care of yourself this few days when i'm not around. though i cannot be with you, but rest assured, i'm supporting you in mind. so must stand strong.:) get things to do if you are boring. and think of ways how to go out with me lehz. i said i will go out with you de, but then, this need planning bahs. lols. bleahs.

tomorrow going to sembawang secondary school to celebrate mr chew's birthday. lols. people from the five schools will be there. wonder how big it is. and guess what? i think i know none of them! sobs. nevermind, i'm going to try my best to know the people. haha. i'm going to do the bunks arrangement le. buais!